fine, actually absolutely okay totally normal despite the
the heavily not so implied holiday traditions the karterians seem to believe in, and also? there is a whole week? but particularly the day of... ah, this is just as bad as asking him to see a movie but also somehow ten times worse malkuth can feel herself getting physically ill as she trots through the falling snow back home. maybe it's just the cold. no, her fur helps protect against that? she can't be this bad off over an innocent request.
she knows she is that's what makes it embarassing WHATEVER!!! whatever. things are. better now. sort of. kind of. it's only awkward if she makes it awkward. just don't make it awkward. easy. ]
If you're not busy
[ no not that. try again. ]
I definitely wouldn't be surprised if you
[ no??? over before it begins??? backspace it up girl ]
Would you like to
[ that's so formal be CASUAL. C A S U A L. ]
Will you spend the Winter Solstice with me? As friends, of course!
[ oh my god she's gonna hurl why did she add that tagline like she'd assume he'd assume any differently she needs to lie down ]
little does he know about her meltdown, if just because he often wonders how confined he is by his own considerations and unspoken emotional distance. while he's thought he's done his best to establish some boundaries between them, there are times where he almost feels like it's entirely out of his own control. akin to drawing a line in the sand and having the waves lap it up in seconds, she's.. ]
hmmmmmm i dun know because of a certain someone ive been painting soooo many houses
[ it's not her fault caleb signed him up for this...
but, before he can get too distracted by his own attempt at a joke— ]
but i did want to check it out yeah pluuus i heard something interesting
[ if he says no, then it's fine. a guy like him has to have at least ten people wanting his time. she can always just
go with someone else and if she sees him there she
might actually be sick? imagining him dancing with anyone turns her stomach so badly she sits in the falling snow to ground her racing mind, closing her eyes until she hears the notification and assumes it's niki and ]
[ unfortunately no one's dropped into her lap. her best interest is to ignore the first half, so, ]
I've been conditioned into expecting them thanks to 3kon, honestly... But okay! The locals are really hyping up the season, so I'm pretty excited to see what they normally do anyway too.
why does it sound like youre lumping me in with the troublemakers
yeah hearing about it is pretty different than actually seeing it so im sure youll get lots of inspiration for your projects too
[ creating living spaces probably means you needed more insight to how the people move, what they actually utilize the space for— their dreams, aspirations, that sort of thing, right? so it makes sense she'd be interested, or so rafayel thinks. ]
[ he's really good at giving her excuses. yet... ]
That's true too, but I wasn't really thinking that way when I asked you... Anyway, I'm kind of surprised you were free! No one catch your eye for this sort of holiday, Mister Fishie?
[ it's wrong to feel so relieved. surely it is. better that he has no one and she doesn't have to worry about who it is or isn't-- she shouldn't be worried about that in the first place, what is she so relieved about? sheesh. ]
Oh, are you putting a deadline on it now? I promise I haven't forgotten, Professor, I'm just putting the finishing touches on my... larger than you'd expect project. It kind of got out of hand in a good way.
[ ...
no, she won't follow up the answer to her inquiry, she isn't sure what to say that wouldn't say too much about her anyway. ]
[ them both feeling relieved for two different reasons. she doesn't pry into his curt response back, and he's genuinely thankful for it. maybe it's the season that's getting to him, or the sudden feeling like he's been left a lot more often to this own thoughts as caleb had also been keeping to himself more, and with malkuth...
either way, he doesn't focus on that. ]
nah its better to take your time than lament over not getting it just the way you want there is that block sometimes between whats envisioned and then what actually ends up on your canvas lol
but ill be looking forward to it then
youre not going to have me set that one up for you too are you
Nope! I'm setting it up myself! I think... you'll like the end product too, it's actually all done except for the setup. I couldn't continue it with the snow starting to come down. Though now I'm starting to wonder if I went too out of the box with your request. Is that okay?
It's my work, but it's still your guidelines I'm following? Sheesh, you act like you've never gone to school before...
[ or
hers was just very strict, but. well. this too says something about her, about elijah, about the place she once grew up in... slowly unlearning that, as she goes to hobby lobby a nearby craft store to await rescue. ]
silly girl there are no rules for whats in your heart you know besides creativity needs room to grow if its trapped in a box itll never really get out to all the places it should
[ or that's how he sees it at least.
he'd like to think it was a professors job to also ensure they didn't compromise a student's potential. ]
It might become one. I'm standing in front a yarn wall right now waiting for my savior to swing by, and the colors are really nice... but there's no way I'll be good enough to make people gifts by the end of the month. I can't say they're the most varied of colors... Karteria still shies from vibrancy in comparison to Kelesis, but they're nice.
I'll ask him when he gets here! In an hour. He has to pick some stuff up for me.
Small animal portraits? Of their souls. That'd be cute, right? Oh, but they might not like the reminder... I'll keep thinking.
Niki told me he'd like ingredients and other kitchen stuff, and I'm gonna get Takasugi some new strings... Rinne is one of the ones I'm struggling with.
[ yeah, probably. but he lights up in a way that she loves, so she doesn't mind. she spoils all her foxes terribly. ]
Answering my question with a question isn't very nice, mister! But I am. I'm having to get used to a no-meat diet, but broths and bones are fine... anything else turns my stomach.
[ and she misses beef terribly. ]
The worst problem I still have is with Carnivora souls, which... happens to make up the majority of us, but befriending them early before they start to show helps! I really can't complain too much, some people have it a lot rougher than I do and don't handle it as well as I have either.
[ but
that's probably because she's been through a few bodies now. she knows they ultimately don't matter. your memories, your beliefs, your heart -- you, that's what matters. and another soul housed next to hers doesn't change that. ]
you say its not nice but you let it go every time so what does that say about you missy lol
[ there's probably a lot that can be said of people who take these transformations in stride. maybe if he were any different, he would have been able to feel and accept this soul with a little more grace. as it stands, it reminds him a lot of what he's lost. he can't help but recall the way a lemurian man had sat by the shore days before his death, murmuring about "no longer being lemurian"—
and maybe he kind of understands how that feels. not just out of sympathy, but out of a different emotion entirely; out of real comprehension of it. as much as he's told otherwise, and as much as he understands he's just... himself. in his own words, "lemuria is more important."
it's why it takes him a second to respond. ]
but that does sound pretty inconvenient
i think youre doing fine if i had to be honest i dun really like it but what can weeeeee doooo
[ she'd like to refrain from thinking about what it says about her for one day, actually. one conversation. she knows. thank god he doesn't. ]
Nothing, I guess! It is pretty inconvenient, but it's livable. I know I'm in the minority for people who see it that way -- you're definitely not alone in the dislike department, but I get it. It's just... To me, no matter what happens, how I change on the outside or what might shift within, I'm still me. Everything I've lived, done, haven't done -- all of that makes up who I am, so it doesn't matter if I lose something, gain something, forget something. But thaaaaaaaaat's because of my very special circumstances!
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fine, actually absolutely okay totally normal despite the
the heavily not so implied holiday traditions the karterians seem to believe in, and also? there is a whole week? but particularly the day of... ah, this is just as bad as asking him to see a movie but also somehow ten times worse malkuth can feel herself getting physically ill as she trots through the falling snow back home. maybe it's just the cold. no, her fur helps protect against that? she can't be this bad off over an innocent request.
she knows she is that's what makes it embarassing WHATEVER!!! whatever. things are. better now. sort of. kind of. it's only awkward if she makes it awkward. just don't make it awkward. easy. ]
If you're not busy[ no not that. try again. ]
I definitely wouldn't be surprised if you[ no??? over before it begins??? backspace it up girl ]
Would you like to[ that's so formal be CASUAL. C A S U A L. ]
Will you spend the Winter Solstice with me?
As friends, of course!
[ oh my god she's gonna hurl why did she add that tagline like she'd assume he'd assume any differently she needs to lie down ]
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little does he know about her meltdown, if just because he often wonders how confined he is by his own considerations and unspoken emotional distance. while he's thought he's done his best to establish some boundaries between them, there are times where he almost feels like it's entirely out of his own control. akin to drawing a line in the sand and having the waves lap it up in seconds, she's.. ]
hmmmmmm i dun know
because of a certain someone ive been painting soooo many houses
[ it's not her fault caleb signed him up for this...
but, before he can get too distracted by his own attempt at a joke— ]
but i did want to check it out yeah
pluuus i heard something interesting
[ nope, he's not going to clarify. ]
1/2
go with someone else and if she sees him there she
might actually be sick? imagining him dancing with anyone turns her stomach so badly she sits in the falling snow to ground her racing mind, closing her eyes until she hears the notification and assumes it's niki and ]
2/2
Then it'll be to thank you, since I haven't done that yet!
What sort of interesting thing?
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you know it only sounds more suspicious when you open with that
you sure someone isnt threatening you lul
buuuuut thats a secret
you should know the value of a good surprise
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I've been conditioned into expecting them thanks to 3kon, honestly...
But okay! The locals are really hyping up the season, so I'm pretty excited to see what they normally do anyway too.
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yeah hearing about it is pretty different than actually seeing it
so im sure youll get lots of inspiration for your projects too
[ creating living spaces probably means you needed more insight to how the people move, what they actually utilize the space for— their dreams, aspirations, that sort of thing, right? so it makes sense she'd be interested, or so rafayel thinks. ]
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That's true too, but I wasn't really thinking that way when I asked you...
Anyway, I'm kind of surprised you were free! No one catch your eye for this sort of holiday, Mister Fishie?
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miss honor student forgot all about her assignments then??? tsk tsk
i might have to change my mind and make this a study hall instead
[ ...
there's a few seconds where the chat bubble moves. ]
there is someone but theyre not here[ ... ]
no
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Oh, are you putting a deadline on it now? I promise I haven't forgotten, Professor, I'm just putting the finishing touches on my... larger than you'd expect project.
It kind of got out of hand in a good way.
[ ...
no, she won't follow up the answer to her inquiry, she isn't sure what to say that wouldn't say too much about her anyway. ]
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either way, he doesn't focus on that. ]
nah its better to take your time than lament over not getting it just the way you want
there is that block sometimes
between whats envisioned and then what actually ends up on your canvas lol
but ill be looking forward to it then
youre not going to have me set that one up for you too are you
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Though now I'm starting to wonder if I went too out of the box with your request. Is that okay?
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its your work right
besides your prof dun like boxes
unless they have surprises inside
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Sheesh, you act like you've never gone to school before...
[ or
hers was just very strict, but. well. this too says something about her, about elijah, about the place she once grew up in... slowly unlearning that, as she goes to
hobby lobbya nearby craft store to await rescue. ]Have you ever tried knitting?
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besides creativity needs room to grow if its trapped in a box itll never really get out to all the places it should
[ or that's how he sees it at least.
he'd like to think it was a professors job to also ensure they didn't compromise a student's potential. ]
is that another hobby of yours
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It might become one. I'm standing in front a yarn wall right now waiting for my savior to swing by, and the colors are really nice... but there's no way I'll be good enough to make people gifts by the end of the month.
I can't say they're the most varied of colors... Karteria still shies from vibrancy in comparison to Kelesis, but they're nice.
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soooo what color is your savior suggesting
yeah theres no way with that attitude missy
you got to rethink your approach
orrrr make a smaller gift
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Small animal portraits?
Of their souls. That'd be cute, right?
Oh, but they might not like the reminder... I'll keep thinking.
Niki told me he'd like ingredients and other kitchen stuff, and I'm gonna get Takasugi some new strings... Rinne is one of the ones I'm struggling with.
[ what can she gift him... ]
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true think its a touchy subject for some
funny enough i feel like its a topic thats come up more often
[ if people are happy with their changes, for example... ]
hmmm he likes a good gamble so maybe thats a hint for you
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[ unfortunately ]
Are you okay with them?
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too many people spoiling him
[ niki, takasugi, malkuth... ]
are you
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Answering my question with a question isn't very nice, mister!
But I am. I'm having to get used to a no-meat diet, but broths and bones are fine... anything else turns my stomach.
[ and she misses beef terribly. ]
The worst problem I still have is with Carnivora souls, which... happens to make up the majority of us, but befriending them early before they start to show helps! I really can't complain too much, some people have it a lot rougher than I do and don't handle it as well as I have either.
[ but
that's probably because she's been through a few bodies now. she knows they ultimately don't matter. your memories, your beliefs, your heart -- you, that's what matters. and another soul housed next to hers doesn't change that. ]
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so what does that say about you missy lol
[ there's probably a lot that can be said of people who take these transformations in stride. maybe if he were any different, he would have been able to feel and accept this soul with a little more grace. as it stands, it reminds him a lot of what he's lost. he can't help but recall the way a lemurian man had sat by the shore days before his death, murmuring about "no longer being lemurian"—
and maybe he kind of understands how that feels. not just out of sympathy, but out of a different emotion entirely; out of real comprehension of it. as much as he's told otherwise, and as much as he understands he's just... himself. in his own words, "lemuria is more important."
it's why it takes him a second to respond. ]
but that does sound pretty inconvenient
i think youre doing fine
if i had to be honest i dun really like it
but what can weeeeee doooo
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Nothing, I guess!
It is pretty inconvenient, but it's livable. I know I'm in the minority for people who see it that way -- you're definitely not alone in the dislike department, but I get it.
It's just...
To me, no matter what happens, how I change on the outside or what might shift within, I'm still me. Everything I've lived, done, haven't done -- all of that makes up who I am, so it doesn't matter if I lose something, gain something, forget something. But thaaaaaaaaat's because of my very special circumstances!