it's true. rafayel is entirely sincere in his request. call it experience. call it being burned. but, he knows even people's recollections and being a part of their memories moving forward isn't always a given. which is why, even if it seems ridiculous to tobari, rafayel himself can't help but give a weak sort of smile back. ]
I know. I know it's not like you'd ever forget on purpose, but if there ever was an instance you could forget, I'd like if you held onto these moments the best you can. Or so I say, but I'd also like it if you could move on from all the hardship in your past. That you really find your own anchor, and achieve peace. It'd also be good if you didn't neglect yourself. In this new life, even if you can't put yourself first, you should at least aim for second. Oh, and maybe you can start a nice hobby too.
[ he pauses, before he gently loosens his grip, letting tobari's hold be the one to dictate the length of their connection. in a way, it might have been his own symbol, his own way of feeling a relationship where he isn't the only one holding on.
despite his yapping, he does end up stopping to say one thing— ]
Thanks. [ ... and he means it. even if he doesn't verbalize a promise back, he thinks this will also be an easy moment to look back on. the sea remembers all, and somewhere within its depths, he'll come back to this moment again, and maybe in those moments he can allow himself a short reprieve from his nightmares. ]
[ okay this time he can't really help it, though he at least mumbles it under his breath: ] ... you really are kind of an idiot. It sounds like you have more wishes for my life than I do.
[ rafayel loosens his grip—but tobari just adjusts the hold of their hands, letting their fingers intertwine before he squeezes once. it's not out of some grand romantic gesture—even if he's not so stupid that he can't understand how it might be misconstrued—but to solidify what he says next ]
There hasn't been a second with you that I'd call a hardship. Not in any real way. [ rafayel is annoying as hell on purpose sometimes, but terribly, tobari accepts even those moments with him. maybe tobari is the one to blame... ] I'm not sure what the future holds or if I can promise any of the rest, but I'll at least take care of this life since you're the one who gave it to me.
[ does this bode well for tobari's ability to put himself first. not really. it's fine. he'll keep walking along the shore anyway, just bringing rafayel along with him. ]
I'm not going to forget you, Raf. I don't see how I could. If you're that worried about it, then I'll keep saying it until you believe me.
rafayel heard that and it's there's like a one second moment in which he just staaaares at tobari. but, he does end up shrugging his shoulders. as a sea god, he should be merciful at times and forgive these transgressions. even if the thought of that is goofy, so he can't help but chuckle a little to himself. (he thinks he's funny)
the only thing that dispels these thoughts is the way tobari is already tugging him along with him. ] You're so pushy. [ but, he clearly doesn't seem bothered by it as he follows right along. he doesn't misconstrue the gesture if just because he knows they both have people they can call entirely their own. even if rafayel does feel weird when there's more than one person he imagines for just a second. but, his point still stands. ]
But, how about you try saying it three times in a row and I'll see how I feel then? [ a joke, but he really is happy at the effort. he uses his free hand to fix his hair that's getting blown around by the wind. ]
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it's true. rafayel is entirely sincere in his request. call it experience. call it being burned. but, he knows even people's recollections and being a part of their memories moving forward isn't always a given. which is why, even if it seems ridiculous to tobari, rafayel himself can't help but give a weak sort of smile back. ]
I know. I know it's not like you'd ever forget on purpose, but if there ever was an instance you could forget, I'd like if you held onto these moments the best you can. Or so I say, but I'd also like it if you could move on from all the hardship in your past. That you really find your own anchor, and achieve peace. It'd also be good if you didn't neglect yourself. In this new life, even if you can't put yourself first, you should at least aim for second. Oh, and maybe you can start a nice hobby too.
[ he pauses, before he gently loosens his grip, letting tobari's hold be the one to dictate the length of their connection. in a way, it might have been his own symbol, his own way of feeling a relationship where he isn't the only one holding on.
despite his yapping, he does end up stopping to say one thing— ]
Thanks. [ ... and he means it. even if he doesn't verbalize a promise back, he thinks this will also be an easy moment to look back on. the sea remembers all, and somewhere within its depths, he'll come back to this moment again, and maybe in those moments he can allow himself a short reprieve from his nightmares. ]
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[ rafayel loosens his grip—but tobari just adjusts the hold of their hands, letting their fingers intertwine before he squeezes once. it's not out of some grand romantic gesture—even if he's not so stupid that he can't understand how it might be misconstrued—but to solidify what he says next ]
There hasn't been a second with you that I'd call a hardship. Not in any real way. [ rafayel is annoying as hell on purpose sometimes, but terribly, tobari accepts even those moments with him. maybe tobari is the one to blame... ] I'm not sure what the future holds or if I can promise any of the rest, but I'll at least take care of this life since you're the one who gave it to me.
[ does this bode well for tobari's ability to put himself first. not really. it's fine. he'll keep walking along the shore anyway, just bringing rafayel along with him. ]
I'm not going to forget you, Raf. I don't see how I could. If you're that worried about it, then I'll keep saying it until you believe me.
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rafayel heard that and it's there's like a one second moment in which he just staaaares at tobari. but, he does end up shrugging his shoulders. as a sea god, he should be merciful at times and forgive these transgressions. even if the thought of that is goofy, so he can't help but chuckle a little to himself. (he thinks he's funny)
the only thing that dispels these thoughts is the way tobari is already tugging him along with him. ] You're so pushy. [ but, he clearly doesn't seem bothered by it as he follows right along. he doesn't misconstrue the gesture if just because he knows they both have people they can call entirely their own. even if rafayel does feel weird when there's more than one person he imagines for just a second. but, his point still stands. ]
But, how about you try saying it three times in a row and I'll see how I feel then? [ a joke, but he really is happy at the effort. he uses his free hand to fix his hair that's getting blown around by the wind. ]