[ it's not false. tobari is 100% right, and rafayel can't help the almost self-deprecating huff that he lets out, as if finding humor in it. ] You're right. [ but, maybe he wishes they both weren't right about this. he isn't sure what's worse, the idea of having failed his people back then, or now...
he falls to silence for a moment, before shaking his head. ] Thanks, it was a beautiful place, yeah. [ that he's ruined, but he doesn't say that. ] Remember when I saw your memories before? Let's just say, this is why I could understand how you felt. It's hard to get over that feeling.
But, that's also why... Lemuria is supposed to be the most important thing to me.
[ but, as they can both see, it's clear he has something else just as important. whether it be the girl in his memories, the woman in his shard, or miss bodyguard who must be waiting for him back in linkon. ]
[ . . . 'supposed to be' really is the operative phrase here, isn't it? and again, it's not something that tobari fails to understand. in the very last dredges of time he had left, he dreamt up a future where he could run away with hinagiku. it's the closest he'd ever felt to abandoning the district he's dedicated so much of his life to. even still... ]
... you can't really help what your heart ends up wanting. I don't think we choose who we end up falling for. [ it's the least logical and responsible thing about him, but he's clearly failed to talk himself out of his own feelings so many times ] But I don't think that's inherently bad either. I'd rather live in a world where we accidentally love more than less.
[ even with its costs. he shakes his head slightly ]
I don't have any good advice or words to make things better. We're in similar enough boats—I tried to keep both and ended up with neither.
... but I think if it's not over for you, then you can find a future that's better than what I ended up with. Even if it's difficult to rebuild, or hard to find. I want to believe you'll succeed.
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he falls to silence for a moment, before shaking his head. ] Thanks, it was a beautiful place, yeah. [ that he's ruined, but he doesn't say that. ] Remember when I saw your memories before? Let's just say, this is why I could understand how you felt. It's hard to get over that feeling.
But, that's also why... Lemuria is supposed to be the most important thing to me.
[ but, as they can both see, it's clear he has something else just as important. whether it be the girl in his memories, the woman in his shard, or miss bodyguard who must be waiting for him back in linkon. ]
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... you can't really help what your heart ends up wanting. I don't think we choose who we end up falling for. [ it's the least logical and responsible thing about him, but he's clearly failed to talk himself out of his own feelings so many times ] But I don't think that's inherently bad either. I'd rather live in a world where we accidentally love more than less.
[ even with its costs. he shakes his head slightly ]
I don't have any good advice or words to make things better. We're in similar enough boats—I tried to keep both and ended up with neither.
... but I think if it's not over for you, then you can find a future that's better than what I ended up with. Even if it's difficult to rebuild, or hard to find. I want to believe you'll succeed.