even though he's also confused at the pufferfish plushie.... why is he in trouble again...
well, he at least tries to be mindful of rafayel's moods so he'll pick it up and put it into his lap for safekeeping? and then reach over to pick up one of rafayel's rolls, guiding it up to his mouth to feed him ]
that said, he can already feel the tips of his ears grow hot at the sudden statement. even if he knows it's not, it feels like a private confession that's just reserved just for him; a secret that they can divulge only within this space. in turn, it makes rafayel feel like he can also be just as expressive about his feelings and all the desires he keeps on lock.
and so, even as he leans in to take a bite, he can't help but maintain... intense eye contact like the sushi roll might not be the only thing he wants to take a bite of. though, he does back off easily enough, just enough so he can grab some of the sweet shrimp and hold it out to tobari. ]
Trade? [ a tilt of his head as he chews and swallows down his piece. ] I'll work even harder so I can take care of you.
[ . . . ? that's a lot over a sushi roll. tobari is halfway to asking what rafayel wants from him before he's being offered some sweet shrimp... he'll take that bite then anyway. ]
... I don't remember asking for that. There's nothing extra you need to do. You already work plenty.
I know, but I want to. I have to think about our future...
[ he knows that might be a heavy topic to drop on tobari when they haven't even kissed yet, but he says it anyway. only because he wanted to show his own conviction about their relationship. he didn't see it as temporary or fleeting. he wanted it to be forever.
which means, he'd also have to make sure he created an environment in which tobari would be comfortable quitting his job. ... if just because he's also selfish and can't envision a life where tobari would be anyone else's manager.
he looks back up at him and he reaches over just to hold his curl his pinky around tobari's. ]
Anyway, starting tomorrow we'll be busy again, right? Try not to stress out too much. If you need a break, or a place to relax, you know you always have it with me. [ ... even if he may also contribute to his stress, but they don't need to acknowledge that. ]
tobari tilts his head, a little confused already. it's true that he didn't think that their friendship would end just because tobari's appointment at rafayel's manager might, but it's strange to think that word might be applied...? it's not like they're dating or engaged....?
even if tobari does think that, whenever rafayel does retire, it's not impossible. sometimes it felt like they were already close enough—but he's never bothered to openly show interest or anything since they have to be so careful about rafayel's image. tobari would sooner shoot himself, as both fan and manager, than let rafayel ever suffer from his own carelessness.
meanwhile raf is starting dating rumors about them for the love of the game ]
... I should be saying that to you. [ tobari just sighs, even as he lets his pinky curl back around rafayel's. and then he can answer honestly: ] As long as you're alright, so am I. So tell me if you ever start to get too tired or if you need more time. I'll figure it out.
I won't have any problems as long as you don't either.
[ it's so funny how tobari is like but i've shown no interest
when rafayel can only misinterpret his drive and his proximity as just that. just seconds ago, he was claiming he was the only one capable of bullying and spoiling him, so he'd say he was pretty justified in thinking he was special. ... and he liked that. for all their relationship lacked physically (help), he was more than satisfied with how much attention tobari poured into him.
... and of course, he was the same.
regardless, it still feels nice to get that touch of reassurance as tobari's pinky links around his for a moment. ]
Soooo that's permission for me to whine and complain as much as I want, yeah? [ he's kidding. for all he does complain, it's true that he had no issues with the schedule tobari sets. he knows he only does as much as he should feasibly be able to handle.
though, he is not looking forward to keeping up with dance lessons and the gym. yuck.
though, that does remind him... ] After we eat and watch an episode, you're still going to help me with posing, right?
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[ bold statement
even though he's also confused at the pufferfish plushie.... why is he in trouble again...
well, he at least tries to be mindful of rafayel's moods so he'll pick it up and put it into his lap for safekeeping? and then reach over to pick up one of rafayel's rolls, guiding it up to his mouth to feed him ]
And only I'm allowed to spoil you.
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that said, he can already feel the tips of his ears grow hot at the sudden statement. even if he knows it's not, it feels like a private confession that's just reserved just for him; a secret that they can divulge only within this space. in turn, it makes rafayel feel like he can also be just as expressive about his feelings and all the desires he keeps on lock.
and so, even as he leans in to take a bite, he can't help but maintain... intense eye contact like the sushi roll might not be the only thing he wants to take a bite of. though, he does back off easily enough, just enough so he can grab some of the sweet shrimp and hold it out to tobari. ]
Trade? [ a tilt of his head as he chews and swallows down his piece. ] I'll work even harder so I can take care of you.
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... I don't remember asking for that. There's nothing extra you need to do. You already work plenty.
[ no need for burnout!! ]
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[ he knows that might be a heavy topic to drop on tobari when they haven't even kissed yet, but he says it anyway. only because he wanted to show his own conviction about their relationship. he didn't see it as temporary or fleeting. he wanted it to be forever.
which means, he'd also have to make sure he created an environment in which tobari would be comfortable quitting his job. ... if just because he's also selfish and can't envision a life where tobari would be anyone else's manager.
he looks back up at him and he reaches over just to hold his curl his pinky around tobari's. ]
Anyway, starting tomorrow we'll be busy again, right? Try not to stress out too much. If you need a break, or a place to relax, you know you always have it with me. [ ... even if he may also contribute to his stress, but they don't need to acknowledge that. ]
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tobari tilts his head, a little confused already. it's true that he didn't think that their friendship would end just because tobari's appointment at rafayel's manager might, but it's strange to think that word might be applied...? it's not like they're dating or engaged....?
even if tobari does think that, whenever rafayel does retire, it's not impossible. sometimes it felt like they were already close enough—but he's never bothered to openly show interest or anything since they have to be so careful about rafayel's image. tobari would sooner shoot himself, as both fan and manager, than let rafayel ever suffer from his own carelessness.
meanwhile raf is starting dating rumors about them for the love of the game ]
... I should be saying that to you. [ tobari just sighs, even as he lets his pinky curl back around rafayel's. and then he can answer honestly: ] As long as you're alright, so am I. So tell me if you ever start to get too tired or if you need more time. I'll figure it out.
I won't have any problems as long as you don't either.
[ rafayel really is his focus in all things ]
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when rafayel can only misinterpret his drive and his proximity as just that. just seconds ago, he was claiming he was the only one capable of bullying and spoiling him, so he'd say he was pretty justified in thinking he was special. ... and he liked that. for all their relationship lacked physically (help), he was more than satisfied with how much attention tobari poured into him.
... and of course, he was the same.
regardless, it still feels nice to get that touch of reassurance as tobari's pinky links around his for a moment. ]
Soooo that's permission for me to whine and complain as much as I want, yeah? [ he's kidding. for all he does complain, it's true that he had no issues with the schedule tobari sets. he knows he only does as much as he should feasibly be able to handle.
though, he is not looking forward to keeping up with dance lessons and the gym. yuck.
though, that does remind him... ] After we eat and watch an episode, you're still going to help me with posing, right?