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tindery: (❧ makes you feel a bit feverish)

[personal profile] tindery 2025-12-30 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ okay he felt sorry but he doesn't feel quite so generous as to let rafayel just manhandle him however he wants. he lets him pinch his nose for a whole half a second before tobari catches his wrist and pulls his hand away. stop.

though at the request, he'll pause. can he say that? rafayel knows just as well that moving on after you've lost so much is hard. having his sister alive and well will do a considerable amount of healing for tobari, but it doesn't change what and who else he's lost beside her.

... well, despite all he's said and done, he'd rather not get into the habit of disappointing rafayel too much. ]


... I'll try. To accept what happiness comes my way.

[ that's as honest as he can hope to be.

he squeezes rafayel's wrist once before letting go. what he can say for sure is: ]


I'd still like to see the ocean.
tindery: (❧ i understand)

[personal profile] tindery 2025-12-31 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
Hm.

[ he can't deny that. he does find himself ruminating on whether he even deserves to be alive... but it doesn't really matter, does it? as long as suzune is going back to life and if it'd be easier for her for him to live, too, then he will.

now that he's done defending himself against raf's annoyances, he'll pick up his own fork and take a bite of the cheesecake. ]


Show me the ocean? How? Are we heading to the lake after this? Or is there anything left you're afraid to show me?

[ it's not like they pick what memories the lake reveals after all ]
tindery: (❧ exhausts me)

[personal profile] tindery 2025-12-31 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ ?

okay, he'll take the strawberry and eat it. ]


If you want me to. [ a slight shrug ] I don't like seeing people uncomfortable, even if there might be things we have to confront about our lives. At the very least, even if it's bad, I don't think there's anything about you I can't accept.

[ maybe this is a bold statement but

tobari's been betrayed a few times over and still manages to try to understand people, so he feels like rafayel can't surprise him too much. and even if he did, it wouldn't change that he's saved tobari's life. so. ]
tindery: (❧ pulls you in)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-01 04:09 am (UTC)(link)
[ to be honest? ]

Not likely. I'm hard to scare off.

[ tobari is often the most intentionally menacing person in the room. with that said, he can at least sense the type of emotional weight that's behind rafayel's words. even if tobari is confident, he doesn't want to be dismissive. ]

... I'm not sure what skeletons you're hiding, and I won't force them out, but I don't want you to think I'm saying it lightly. If it's you, then I won't look away.
tindery: (❧ how crushing loneliness can be)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-01 06:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ not the twilight ]

... like I said, I don't scare easy.

[ that's as gently as he can say 'so what?' it's not without his own curiosity, wondering what could drive rafayel to do that if it's true, but.

well.

tobari tries not to be a hypocrite.

do you want to fastforward to lake, bijou.... give me mem...... holds hands out politely ]
tindery: (❧ got tangled up bad)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-02 09:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ wow what if he wants to know now if rafayel is a murderer

just kidding, tobari really meant it when he said he'd accept literally anything rafayel showed him. if anything, knowing that raf lives in this level of luxury and opulence is actually far more foreign to tobari than anything else. even though the red light district is made of glamour and beauty, most of it is just a cover-up for the hard life of its occupants. this studio and home feels genuine in its splendor, and he can't help but admire it—even if his gaze does linger on the paintings more than anything else once he puts together that they're rafayel's works.

he'll turn to rafayel once spoken to, and his smile comes a little easier, coaxed by the openness in rafayel's emotions. tobari's own just reflect a little bit of his awe, some of his fondness. ]


Isn't that what we're here for? Lead the way.

[ he'll follow after, even though he almost gets a sense that this might be just as much for raf as it is for him ]
tindery: (❧ makes you feel a bit feverish)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-03 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ yea ask him

but maybe not here at the beach where it is so peaceful and nice? it's even nicer than the one that obikawa summoned up at random, and tobari sort of just copies rafayel's own motions to toe off his boots and leave it behind with his socks stuffed in them. even if rafayel looks back to make sure he's following—he is, even though his gaze is largely trained on the ocean itself with a quiet, admiring type of awe.

tobari has seen a lake in the abyss, but it's too toxic to casually swim in. clean water itself is hard to come by in itehari. the idea of just being able to wade right into the ocean astounds him and his emotions reflect that so easily. astonishment, reverence, and even a not-so-small amount of gratitude. it's the type of sight he never thought he'd be able to see in his life.

rafayel's question brings him back to earth and even as he's following into the water without much concern, ]


No, but I never got the chance to learn how to swim.

[ but it still doesn't occur to him to be afraid. he's busy watching the waves come in and wash over the shore ]
tindery: (❧ i'm done trying to trust)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-04 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ HE'S JUST FOLLOWING RAFAYEL'S LEAD enough with the feet

when the safe point is indicated, tobari will glance in that direction and mentally note it, nodding. in that case, that means he'll wade in pretty much up until that point exactly, idly kicking at the waves just to note the sensation and the feeling of the sea breeze. for a second he just looks around like he's committing this to memory, laughing when rafayel makes that comment. ]


Sorry, but gods and worship haven't done much for me in the past. [ historically, tobari is actually more of a heretic in itehari. but that's because the taijuu really... doesn't do much. this is still a hilarious thing to say to rafayel.

still, when another warm, seasalty breeze passes by them both, tussling their hair, he takes a big inhale and hums ]
But I can see how a sight like this could make someone believe in divinity.

[ how it'd be nice to have something to believe in ]
tindery: (❧ you know nothing)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-04 07:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ what is up with all these incredibly chill seagulls... obikawa had one, too... tobari is going to be misled to believe that they are all completely chill and docile creatures and not feathery monsters who'll attack you for hot dog

also this is funny because he's just looking at raf like ??? ]


Are you trying to get me to pray to you?

[ HE DID GET A MIRACLE.... HE'S STILL NOT SURE HOW TO SHOW THANKS... FOR SOME REASON DEFERENCE ALSO STILL DOESN'T OCCUR TO HIM.... ]
tindery: (❧ the words rush out)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-04 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ hmmmm ]

I'm worried I'm going to start spoiling you...

[ his expression is so serious and deliberating but emotionshare does give away that he's playing around. just teasing ]
tindery: (❧ i refuse to mov eon)

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[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-04 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
That's called poor planning.

[ if he has foresight to realize that raf could stand to get more annoying then why wouldn't he prevent it? hello?

tobari has never been around water before but it's such an innate instinct to kick water at someone being irritating, which he does now (tobari was annoying first) maybe so ]
tindery: (❧ i understand)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-04 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
... well, I did say that I'm not the type of person who's ungrateful.

[ which is why he'll reach out to catch rafayel's hand in his own after a second ]

You saved my life. There's no other way to see it.

I'll probably never be able to properly repay you, but if there's something you ever want that I can give, just name it. The list of things I wouldn't do for you is short. Not really as offerings to a god or a savior but—just to you.

[ his friend. even if friend somehow feels way too casual for the appreciation that tobari feels. ]

So I can only hope that you find something that'll make you happy with that compass, reach it, and keep it for the rest of your life—'cause I'll just wish we had more time and remember you for the rest of mine, because that's still time you gave me.

If you want more straightforward praise, I guess there's more I can say. [ he's actually not shy about complimenting people once he likes them enough ] But I thought I'd get what I actually think out of the way first.
tindery: (❧ makes you feel a bit feverish)

[personal profile] tindery 2026-01-04 10:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ for the record the very first thing out of tobari's mouth is almost immediately 'are you stupid?' but he barely holds back because rafayel's request seems sincere

but he does internally have a moment where he's like rafayel... are you... dumb.>??? ]


... you're seriously asking...

[ he shakes his head in disbelief for a second, but he'll just hold onto rafayel's hand tighter, as if that'll make this easier for him to understand. ]

I wasn't going to bother explaining this but... I asked for your favorite drink so I could knock back the vial at the same time, so I wouldn't forget who gave me this chance. [ so every time he has a taste of strawberry or apparently cheese (probably just desserts in general) he'll remember today ] I wanted to see your ocean so that if I ever do make it to another, then I'll just compare it to yours.

[ well. and also obikawa's. but rafayel's is already better. ]

My life is a series of gathering pieces of people to hold onto, long after they're gone. [ because people in the abyss die young and people in the red light district die early, so tobari is familiar with the practice of remembrance ] Your art, your sea, all the things you love and have loved and all the ways you annoy the shit out of me—

I won't forget. That's an easy promise to make.

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