I'm getting tired of being a freeloader though. Don't get too lonely if I head into the city to find some work.
[ moves on like he didn't say anything.... and he literally just self-assigns himself a job when he doesn't need one... workaholics are so insane why do they do that ]
[ to be honest, rafayel was already beginning to feel uncomfortably aware of tobari. maybe it's the fact that this honest conversation was overdue, or that he was already feeling a little emotional... but, the joining of their fingers felt far more intimate than would be appropriate of what he perceived to be their relationship. then again, he thinks that, but he isn't sure how that could be defined. at his core, his own heart and his bond hasn't changed, but at the same time...
it didn't mean he could erase away all the other emotions he feels.
even now when tobari speaks, he feels his ears grow a little hot, and he pulls back his fingers just slightly. ]
... You act like I'm a shelter dog? [ hello? ] Even I can handle one little birdie leaving the nest. [ he says as a joke, but his mind keeps going back to what tobari said from before. it runs through his mind a few more times, and he can't deny it makes him feel kinda crazy?
boldly, he places his other hand on tobari's cheek. he stares into his eyes for a moment, before he just releases a small exhale. that is, before pinching his cheek. revenge. you don't say those kinds of words to just anyone, okay!! ]
[ if tobari's the stray cat and rafayel is the shelter dog then who is flying the plane?
regardless, he's about to respond to that—but it feels like someone was taking up his little taunt from earlier? when raf's hand comes out to tobari's cheek, he doesn't flinch away—rather, he tilts his head just enough to lean into the touch for just a second. until the pinch comes.
a briefly annoyed look crosses his face before he rolls his eyes, free hand coming up to catch rafayel's hand by the wrist and pull it just a little bit away from his face. ]
Close, but not quite.
[ it's probably crossing a line when tobari retaliates in his own way, nipping just lightly on the delicate skin of rafayel's inner wrist, right over where his pulse would be. though just in case that's too much—even if it's intentionally too much—his grip loosens enough for rafayel to reclaim his hand easily. ]
I wouldn't play games like that with a guy like me.
the way he leaned his face into his palm was kind of cute. though, he barely gets to feel like he's ( singles inferno voice ) conquered anything, really, especially not when tobari has other plans. he sucks in a bit of air through his teeth as he deliberates on playing up the pain.
but, before he could really settle on one idea over another, tobari is already... gone.
what the hell...
rafayel gives that look like he's been abandoned? betrayed? how does that make you feel, tobari... he does end up letting his hand remain in tobari's hold. maybe they were both kind of prisoners to whatever this was... ] That's not very adult-like of you. [ ... ]
Besides, you can front, but to be you're just Tobari, so I'll have to take my chances.
help me though. not the abandoned and betrayed look. the fact of the matter is that it makes tobari fEEL GUILTY AND LIKE HE SHOULD KEEP FLIRTING—but also he has barely just enough sense to know better. it's a very near thing, though. unlike how he felt with hinagiku, he has less structural boundaries to making his intentions clear here... even though he also knows it's not exactly simple for rafayel either. out of respect for whatever he's feeling, for what tobari has already seen in his memories and not-quite-memories, tobari figures he can make himself a little clearer. ]
... ah, that's true. If it's you, I wouldn't really be playing.
[ to try to soothe some of that sense of betrayal, he'll turn raf's hand over in his hold again. the press of his lips against that same spot he nipped is featherlight, but gentle. even still, he holds raf's gaze through the brief interaction.
even when he pulls back, he lets his thumb rest over the spot as if searching out the rhythm of raf's pulse. somewhere between curious and greedy to know if he could get his heart to beat a little faster. ]
I do have eyes, though. So if there's something else distracting you... it's not like I'm going anywhere. Guess I can be patient just this once.
[ as clear as he can care to make it—whatever raf's relationship with his miss bodyguard is, tobari will acknowledge it. even if he will probably continue to push his own luck wherever he can find a chance. ]
But I'll be ready to cherish you whenever you want, Raf.
[ WHY IS YOUR GUT REACTION TO FLIRT WHEN SOMEONE LOOKS SAD!!!!
honestly, that possibility doesn't even cross rafayel's mind. despite being well-versed in the emotional undertakings of humans and the surface world, it didn't mean he was a mind-reader. all the more when it came to tobari. or more accuraltely, it isn't that he can't read how tobari feels as much as he felt that he shouldn't. not unlike the intrinsic fear people feel when wading into unknown waters and propelling themselves further in its depths— he felt scared to explore those feelings. his feelings.
there's a warning on the tip of rafayel's tongue. maybe it's to chastise him from saying something he might regret, or to scold himself for fanning the flames of his own desires. desires that should have been extinguished from the moment he striped tobari of his freedom of choice, and yet that couldn't be further from what actually happened.
he blinks a few times at tobari's words, if just because it mimicked his own. he also thought he would monitor her from a careful distance. he thought his own emotions could have settled, if she was just happy. but, maybe that's not true. ... and maybe it's also not true that he's satisfied with whatever this is.
after all, just the thought of tobari actually leaving him was...
and now he can't stop thinking about it. ] Are you actually kind of an idiot? [ lol. who said this? ] What if you're kept waiting, like... forever? You shouldn't promise things you can't keep. I mean, [ he looks back at tobari, and he can't help but feel a little emotional when he sees how sincere he looks. or how soft his features seem. he also can't help the way he looks briefly at his lips, before turning his head away. ]
[ it's the worst thing about him............. ly is so right in being a tobari hater
tobari won't say that he'd wait forever. he can't. he doesn't have that kind of time. however, what he can say without hesitation is, ]
You can believe me. Where would I even go? You just threatened me that I'm not allowed to change my mind and leave.
[ he wouldn't have, anyway, but it is a little funny that rafayel just straight up said he can't. what was the endgame for that going to be? heterosexual housemates forever? right. sure.
there is still the slightest inclination he has to intentionally make himself a problem. rafayel baits him on purpose often—but now, his hesitation and clearly torn feelings almost feel unintentionally tempting. tobari wants to know just how close he is to giving in. it feels like such a near thing. maybe with just one more little nudge, a pull closer, an almost kiss—
... he doesn't think this is a battle he wants to win based on seduction, though. if he's going to encourage rafayel to make this type of choice, it should be done with intention. and maybe, just maybe, tobari is aware of himself enough to know that he wouldn't want something so important to be done on a whim. if this is going to mean something, it might as well be done properly. ]
But if you're still feeling doubtful, how about a date? You can call it off whenever you want or decide you hate it. Just probably don't stand me up since we'll be living together.
[ that'd be hilariously awkward. tobari wouldn't put it past raf to try to lock him out of the house ]
[ imagine heterosexual housemates au... i was going to say this was them, but this was never them. the tension is palpable. even when rafayel's attempted to put a careful, appropriate amount of distance between the two of them, he knows all it takes is a brief touch, or a light conversation to bring him back to square one. as alluring as having someone's devotion is— it's scary to know you often give as much as you take.
they say each sea god receives their sacrifice, but occasionally he wonders if he's actually the one shackled. kind of like now. he feels like he's being ensnared in a trap, and yet the offer is too sweet for him to walk away from. ... and he could never reject sincerity like this. ]
A date, huh? Yeah, I can do that. [ he tries to sound casual, despite the fact that his heart is beating rapid again, and he can feel a bit of heat under his skin. ] Am I leaving it to you to plan? I'm kind of interested in your [ ( singles inferno voice ) ] dating style.
NOT THE SINGLES INFERNO also the way that tobari just looks so thoughtful about this... ]
... I think if I'm too serious about it, you'll get too nervous? [ the way he's trying to be considerate but ] It's best not to forget where I come from and who I was taught by.
[ the fact of the matter is that tobari is hilariously confident in being a good date. sometimes you were raised in an environment where they're known for selling love and sex to put food on the table. ]
But I can still put together something simple. It'll still be good, but I'd rather not overwhelm you.
tobari might have a point. but, rafayel still puts emphasis behind the fact that he isn't one to back down from a challenge (this is a date). regardless, his pride stands. this is especially the case in knowing tobari's background. it's not that he's judgmental as much as he... is a little envious of those who got to know him in such an intimate way before he even walked into his life.
of people who got close to tobari in a capacity that maybe he won't be able to touch. but, at the same time, of comprehending all that he's left behind. he knows he can't begin to fill that gap and tobari's gratitude towards them likely remains unchanged, but...
he shakes it off. ] Do you see me as the type who gets overwhelmed? I'm not fragile, you know. [ he's said this before in purgatory, and he'll still say it now. ] I'll match your pace for one day.
it would be so much easier to have a lowkey date—not unlike what he shared with hinagiku the one time that they got to forget the world and their stations and focus on each other. every other time that tobari's bothered to go fully out of his way to entertain someone with the full intention of sweeping them off their feet, he also had more resources than he does here... but if rafayel is asking, it's hard to feel like it's alright to half-ass this.
even if he had intended to do so not out of lack of care, but rather the opposite. an overwhelming amount of care, because he doesn't want rafayel to feel like he's forcing him to choose or get caught in something that could be so entirely too much for someone with a heart so prone to loving unabashedly. ]
... give me a few days to prepare then. I'll have to work some things out.
[ and despite rafayel's insistence... he does want to be careful. for something—someone—that matters this much... it feels more important than usual. ]
at times, he feels like he can see through his dishonesty. the words he says, the way his brow knit together in what could be observed as a sign of displeasure... all seem to go against his more accommodating nature. but, in moments where tobari doesn't give him that, well, he isn't sure what he's thinking?
there's a brief tilt of his head as he seems to study tobari's features for an inkling of what could possibly running through his mind. he doesn't actually glean anything deeper, however... and so he takes his words at face value.
though, he feels an odd sense of anticipation bubbling inside of him. was he excited? a little unnerved? regretting his boldness? either way, he'd have to see. ] If it's too hard, don't think too much about it. [ if tobari knows him, he'd know rafayel seems just as satisfied to be in his company. ] You can let Thomas know if you need anything, too. [ just in case it's a surprise, he doesn't want to ruin it. ]
Hmm... No, I wouldn't say that. [ that it's too hard by any means. the thoughtful expression fades away, letting tobari raise his brow instead and offer a clearly taunting smile. ] Maybe it's more like... I'm looking forward to it.
[ which probably comes off a little bit like a threat and also a promise. ]
But ah, I will. [ it will be a surprise because it sounds more fun that way ] Let's get Suzune moved in tomorrow and then leave your weekend open, alright?
[ the funny thing is how they still have to be normal housemates until they go on this actual date. it's fine, tobari will wander off and keep himself occupied looking after his sister so they don't have to deal with too much of the unresolved tension before the date even starts ]
there's a bit of heat on his cheeks and on around his ears, but he does his best to mask it behind a face of forced neutrality. even, if the small quirk of his lips probably give him away. that's likely why he lifts his hand, pressing his knuckles against his lips as if he's thinking. ]
You're really bad for my heart... [ he says this mostly to himself. under his breath, and hopefully hushed enough to remain mostly indecipherable. it's why, he swiftly begins to turn around, as if he suddenly remembered to do something. ] But, sure. I'll be here all day tomorrow. As you know, I also just finished my last piece. [ maybe it's more accurate to state he's gotten a lot of painting done since they've returned so...
this might be the perfect break? maybe they can stay with suzune for a few days too? a suggestion he leaves off for now.
as for the weekend... well, maybe the day off, he'll text tobari: ]
tobari doesn't need to hear the words exactly to know that this is exactly the type of reaction he wanted. so there's maybe something a little smug in his expression, a glint in his eye that's already satisfied. he really should know better than to flirt with his (checks notes) heterosexual housemate... but if it's leading up to a date, then surely it's fine! surely now he's just playing by the correct playbook!
anyway suzune is absolutely delighted to hear that tobari is NOT going to be living with her and even congratulates them when she understands tobari will be staying with mister rafayel! :) notably, this time, tobari doesn't try to correct her and instead just smoothly reorients the conversation to nagging about if she's done packing.
on the day of, tobari's already out—their plans are more toward late afternoon and he's been out of the house since morning. the most he's told rafayel is to meet him in the city ]
Classy but comfortable? Dont overthink it You always look good
[ little miss suzune no... you can't encourage mister rafayel...
but, he's relieved she seems to be taking it rather well. or rather, she seems delighted? they really grow up so fast... that said, it's been a whirlwind of a few days since the move. which may have worked out for his propensity to overthink when it came to matters of the heart. he was sensitive and delicate, and it likely showed in the days prior, where he seems to toe the line of being incredibly good as appearing aloof, and other days where he completely avoided him.
you know, those awkward anime moments where they reach for the same... idk ketchup.
that said, he does smile a little at the text. ]
wow youre already laying it on thiiick makes me think you have an ulterior motive tonight
[ the idea of rafayel just full on avoiding tobari and tobari in the background like 'yea? this is why i think it isn't smart to go all out on this date?'
and you know what he's doing anyway? three guesses and the first two don't count
but he never brought it up or called attention to it for raf's sake... at least the day of the date has arrived and tobari looks down at this text for a second before responding ]
Should I clarify I dont move that fast on the first date? Even as a joke I feel like I should be sincere For what matters Id rather take my time And you do matter to me
[ he's fully aware that raf is probably just messing with him but he takes intimacy seriously......... ]
Anyway did that answer your question about dress code
it's strange. he's never considered himself someone afraid of commitment. no, it came easily to him. lemurians lived and breathed for love. once they gave their hearts, they tended to go in blindly, enough where the deep sea felt like a prison for some; where their hearts remained on land, regardless of what all common conventions would say. maybe rafayel isn't the exception. he isn't sure what's worse, though. the fact that he's a little touched tobari is thinking of him this much, or the fact that he feels a little disappointed? stop, he is a lads, he cannot fight his nature. ]
thats not what you said at the hotel lobby that one time
[ forget the fact that he was also cursed... bye ]
anyway yeah you did i was going to ask what color you were gonna wear but nvm its not fun unless we coordinate without planning
[ tobari knows better that to admit that the pillow made him feel flirty but not necessarily in love and unfortunately he's way easier to sleep with if he's not in love with you
so instead he tries to find a different way out of this that is actually just as bad ]
How do I put this delicately If youre patient I'll make it worth your while So be good
[ BUT HE'S NOT ENTERTAINING THIS ANYMORE!!!! even as he is making the problem worse.... he always does this ]
I've already left the house so it's up to you No pressure
they say the passive fish loses its meal so too much patience isnt always a good thing dun forget this a life lesson from rafayel
[ but okay, he's also over it. (he's not)
he wants the last word still, but he will end up leaving the house at the designated hour. enough to make it at the meeting spot with some time to spare. he figures if tobari makes it just on time, he can just have a coffee at a cafe, or something? but he is wearing this i guess... this is like linking an outfit at the purgatory parties all over again. also why was it so hard to find this outfit not unbuttoned... people be wilding. ]
[ they're going on a date.... he'll say whatever the hell he wants even if it's ill-advised..... which is the otome way i suppose
anyway he's rolling his eyes at this message and not entertaining it further because they aren't banging on the first date, raf. this is the 5% of stuff that tobari manages to firmly say no about
this fit is so cute.... the idea of people just unbuttoning it is so funny to me OH LADS anyway tobari is always black with shades of red so it's not a surprise they match.
rafayel will find himself on a fairly busy street—there's eateries, bars, plenty of places where people are milling about. it's late afternoon, approaching dusk, and tobari is definitely already there because it'd be embarrassing to make his date wait. and yet he strides over as if this is any other time they're meeting up and not a date. despite the fact that he is taking this seriously, there's still this easy confidence to him—something a bit effortless even when in the midst of what can really only be called a housemate situationship ]
Hey. You didn't overthink it, right?
[ and yet he'll reach out to catch rafayel's hand, pulling him closer automatically as tobari tilts his head as if to drink in the sight of him ]
hinagiku didn't deserve this... but, oh this fit is so cute?? them inadvertently matching. or maybe it isn't accidental at all.
when he sees tobari, he can already feel his tension rise. there's a certain excitement laced behind his voice, even when he seems keen on playing it cool. he also gives a casual sort of wave, though he does end up pointing at his cheek and doing... a cute pose. ] Do you think you achieve this kind of look without a little thinking? [ jk, jk. he brushes it off easily enough, especially as... he's gradually realizing that tobari took his hand so effortlessly?
he blinks a few times, before he looks away. ] Looks like you thought a little, too. [ tobari does look good...
you know, from what he saw before he turned his head away. ]
[ there's a perceptible difference today compared to the usual. he isn't sure if that's a product of him overanalyzing their circumstances, or because there really is some unspoken, subtle shift in their relationship. in the same vein, he swiftly realizes he's squeezing tobari's hand tighter than he intends, and he loosens his grip by the time he mentally recovers from the fact that... tobari? might be hitting on him? hello?
normally, he'd ask him to clarify and squeeze another compliment out of him, but that feels... dangerous today. ]
Sure. But, you planned a whole course? [ he tilts his head curiously, gradually doing his best to fall back to routine. ] Funny, since in the end you're just coming back home with me.
[ is it abnormal to hit on the purpose youβre on a date withβ¦? ]
Tell me about it. Is it weird if I ask you for a ride back home? Should I just stay with Suzune tonight?
[ he actually hasnβt found a solution for this yet but he canβt deny that the first option sounds kinda lame to himβ¦ who asks their date to drive them backβ¦ is it different when theyβre living together perhapsβ¦
but tobari will gently pull rafayel along down the street—not too far, but theyβre apparently going to a different bar ]
Dinnerβs classic but I figured we should actually do something fun.
[ since they can just⦠eat dinner together⦠anytime⦠]
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I'm getting tired of being a freeloader though. Don't get too lonely if I head into the city to find some work.
[ moves on like he didn't say anything.... and he literally just self-assigns himself a job when he doesn't need one... workaholics are so insane why do they do that ]
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it didn't mean he could erase away all the other emotions he feels.
even now when tobari speaks, he feels his ears grow a little hot, and he pulls back his fingers just slightly. ]
... You act like I'm a shelter dog? [ hello? ] Even I can handle one little birdie leaving the nest. [ he says as a joke, but his mind keeps going back to what tobari said from before. it runs through his mind a few more times, and he can't deny it makes him feel kinda crazy?
boldly, he places his other hand on tobari's cheek. he stares into his eyes for a moment, before he just releases a small exhale. that is, before pinching his cheek. revenge. you don't say those kinds of words to just anyone, okay!! ]
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regardless, he's about to respond to that—but it feels like someone was taking up his little taunt from earlier? when raf's hand comes out to tobari's cheek, he doesn't flinch away—rather, he tilts his head just enough to lean into the touch for just a second. until the pinch comes.
a briefly annoyed look crosses his face before he rolls his eyes, free hand coming up to catch rafayel's hand by the wrist and pull it just a little bit away from his face. ]
Close, but not quite.
[ it's probably crossing a line when tobari retaliates in his own way, nipping just lightly on the delicate skin of rafayel's inner wrist, right over where his pulse would be. though just in case that's too much—even if it's intentionally too much—his grip loosens enough for rafayel to reclaim his hand easily. ]
I wouldn't play games like that with a guy like me.
[ someone prone to escalation ]
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the way he leaned his face into his palm was kind of cute. though, he barely gets to feel like he's ( singles inferno voice ) conquered anything, really, especially not when tobari has other plans. he sucks in a bit of air through his teeth as he deliberates on playing up the pain.
but, before he could really settle on one idea over another, tobari is already... gone.
what the hell...
rafayel gives that look like he's been abandoned? betrayed? how does that make you feel, tobari... he does end up letting his hand remain in tobari's hold. maybe they were both kind of prisoners to whatever this was... ] That's not very adult-like of you. [ ... ]
Besides, you can front, but to be you're just Tobari, so I'll have to take my chances.
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help me though. not the abandoned and betrayed look. the fact of the matter is that it makes tobari fEEL GUILTY AND LIKE HE SHOULD KEEP FLIRTING—but also he has barely just enough sense to know better. it's a very near thing, though. unlike how he felt with hinagiku, he has less structural boundaries to making his intentions clear here... even though he also knows it's not exactly simple for rafayel either. out of respect for whatever he's feeling, for what tobari has already seen in his memories and not-quite-memories, tobari figures he can make himself a little clearer. ]
... ah, that's true. If it's you, I wouldn't really be playing.
[ to try to soothe some of that sense of betrayal, he'll turn raf's hand over in his hold again. the press of his lips against that same spot he nipped is featherlight, but gentle. even still, he holds raf's gaze through the brief interaction.
even when he pulls back, he lets his thumb rest over the spot as if searching out the rhythm of raf's pulse. somewhere between curious and greedy to know if he could get his heart to beat a little faster. ]
I do have eyes, though. So if there's something else distracting you... it's not like I'm going anywhere. Guess I can be patient just this once.
[ as clear as he can care to make it—whatever raf's relationship with his miss bodyguard is, tobari will acknowledge it. even if he will probably continue to push his own luck wherever he can find a chance. ]
But I'll be ready to cherish you whenever you want, Raf.
[ liiiiiike now ]
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honestly, that possibility doesn't even cross rafayel's mind. despite being well-versed in the emotional undertakings of humans and the surface world, it didn't mean he was a mind-reader. all the more when it came to tobari. or more accuraltely, it isn't that he can't read how tobari feels as much as he felt that he shouldn't. not unlike the intrinsic fear people feel when wading into unknown waters and propelling themselves further in its depths— he felt scared to explore those feelings. his feelings.
there's a warning on the tip of rafayel's tongue. maybe it's to chastise him from saying something he might regret, or to scold himself for fanning the flames of his own desires. desires that should have been extinguished from the moment he striped tobari of his freedom of choice, and yet that couldn't be further from what actually happened.
he blinks a few times at tobari's words, if just because it mimicked his own. he also thought he would monitor her from a careful distance. he thought his own emotions could have settled, if she was just happy. but, maybe that's not true. ... and maybe it's also not true that he's satisfied with whatever this is.
after all, just the thought of tobari actually leaving him was...
and now he can't stop thinking about it. ] Are you actually kind of an idiot? [ lol. who said this? ] What if you're kept waiting, like... forever? You shouldn't promise things you can't keep. I mean, [ he looks back at tobari, and he can't help but feel a little emotional when he sees how sincere he looks. or how soft his features seem. he also can't help the way he looks briefly at his lips, before turning his head away. ]
What if I believe you?
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tobari won't say that he'd wait forever. he can't. he doesn't have that kind of time. however, what he can say without hesitation is, ]
You can believe me. Where would I even go? You just threatened me that I'm not allowed to change my mind and leave.
[ he wouldn't have, anyway, but it is a little funny that rafayel just straight up said he can't. what was the endgame for that going to be? heterosexual housemates forever? right. sure.
there is still the slightest inclination he has to intentionally make himself a problem. rafayel baits him on purpose often—but now, his hesitation and clearly torn feelings almost feel unintentionally tempting. tobari wants to know just how close he is to giving in. it feels like such a near thing. maybe with just one more little nudge, a pull closer, an almost kiss—
... he doesn't think this is a battle he wants to win based on seduction, though. if he's going to encourage rafayel to make this type of choice, it should be done with intention. and maybe, just maybe, tobari is aware of himself enough to know that he wouldn't want something so important to be done on a whim. if this is going to mean something, it might as well be done properly. ]
But if you're still feeling doubtful, how about a date? You can call it off whenever you want or decide you hate it. Just probably don't stand me up since we'll be living together.
[ that'd be hilariously awkward. tobari wouldn't put it past raf to try to lock him out of the house ]
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A threat? Now you're exaggerating.
[ imagine heterosexual housemates au... i was going to say this was them, but this was never them. the tension is palpable. even when rafayel's attempted to put a careful, appropriate amount of distance between the two of them, he knows all it takes is a brief touch, or a light conversation to bring him back to square one. as alluring as having someone's devotion is— it's scary to know you often give as much as you take.
they say each sea god receives their sacrifice, but occasionally he wonders if he's actually the one shackled. kind of like now. he feels like he's being ensnared in a trap, and yet the offer is too sweet for him to walk away from. ... and he could never reject sincerity like this. ]
A date, huh? Yeah, I can do that. [ he tries to sound casual, despite the fact that his heart is beating rapid again, and he can feel a bit of heat under his skin. ] Am I leaving it to you to plan? I'm kind of interested in your [ ( singles inferno voice ) ] dating style.
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NOT THE SINGLES INFERNO also the way that tobari just looks so thoughtful about this... ]
... I think if I'm too serious about it, you'll get too nervous? [ the way he's trying to be considerate but ] It's best not to forget where I come from and who I was taught by.
[ the fact of the matter is that tobari is hilariously confident in being a good date. sometimes you were raised in an environment where they're known for selling love and sex to put food on the table. ]
But I can still put together something simple. It'll still be good, but I'd rather not overwhelm you.
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Too nervous? Puh-lease. [ actually,
tobari might have a point. but, rafayel still puts emphasis behind the fact that he isn't one to back down from a challenge (this is a date). regardless, his pride stands. this is especially the case in knowing tobari's background. it's not that he's judgmental as much as he... is a little envious of those who got to know him in such an intimate way before he even walked into his life.
of people who got close to tobari in a capacity that maybe he won't be able to touch. but, at the same time, of comprehending all that he's left behind. he knows he can't begin to fill that gap and tobari's gratitude towards them likely remains unchanged, but...
he shakes it off. ] Do you see me as the type who gets overwhelmed? I'm not fragile, you know. [ he's said this before in purgatory, and he'll still say it now. ] I'll match your pace for one day.
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he still doesn't really think that's a good idea?
it would be so much easier to have a lowkey date—not unlike what he shared with hinagiku the one time that they got to forget the world and their stations and focus on each other. every other time that tobari's bothered to go fully out of his way to entertain someone with the full intention of sweeping them off their feet, he also had more resources than he does here... but if rafayel is asking, it's hard to feel like it's alright to half-ass this.
even if he had intended to do so not out of lack of care, but rather the opposite. an overwhelming amount of care, because he doesn't want rafayel to feel like he's forcing him to choose or get caught in something that could be so entirely too much for someone with a heart so prone to loving unabashedly. ]
... give me a few days to prepare then. I'll have to work some things out.
[ and despite rafayel's insistence... he does want to be careful. for something—someone—that matters this much... it feels more important than usual. ]
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at times, he feels like he can see through his dishonesty. the words he says, the way his brow knit together in what could be observed as a sign of displeasure... all seem to go against his more accommodating nature. but, in moments where tobari doesn't give him that, well, he isn't sure what he's thinking?
there's a brief tilt of his head as he seems to study tobari's features for an inkling of what could possibly running through his mind. he doesn't actually glean anything deeper, however... and so he takes his words at face value.
though, he feels an odd sense of anticipation bubbling inside of him. was he excited? a little unnerved? regretting his boldness? either way, he'd have to see. ] If it's too hard, don't think too much about it. [ if tobari knows him, he'd know rafayel seems just as satisfied to be in his company. ] You can let Thomas know if you need anything, too. [ just in case it's a surprise, he doesn't want to ruin it. ]
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[ which probably comes off a little bit like a threat and also a promise. ]
But ah, I will. [ it will be a surprise because it sounds more fun that way ] Let's get Suzune moved in tomorrow and then leave your weekend open, alright?
[ the funny thing is how they still have to be normal housemates until they go on this actual date. it's fine, tobari will wander off and keep himself occupied looking after his sister so they don't have to deal with too much of the unresolved tension before the date even starts ]
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there's a bit of heat on his cheeks and on around his ears, but he does his best to mask it behind a face of forced neutrality. even, if the small quirk of his lips probably give him away. that's likely why he lifts his hand, pressing his knuckles against his lips as if he's thinking. ]
You're really bad for my heart... [ he says this mostly to himself. under his breath, and hopefully hushed enough to remain mostly indecipherable. it's why, he swiftly begins to turn around, as if he suddenly remembered to do something. ] But, sure. I'll be here all day tomorrow. As you know, I also just finished my last piece. [ maybe it's more accurate to state he's gotten a lot of painting done since they've returned so...
this might be the perfect break? maybe they can stay with suzune for a few days too? a suggestion he leaves off for now.
as for the weekend... well, maybe the day off, he'll text tobari: ]
uh what was the dress code again lol
[ noncons you to continue this. ]
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tobari doesn't need to hear the words exactly to know that this is exactly the type of reaction he wanted. so there's maybe something a little smug in his expression, a glint in his eye that's already satisfied. he really should know better than to flirt with his (checks notes) heterosexual housemate... but if it's leading up to a date, then surely it's fine! surely now he's just playing by the correct playbook!
anyway suzune is absolutely delighted to hear that tobari is NOT going to be living with her and even congratulates them when she understands tobari will be staying with mister rafayel! :) notably, this time, tobari doesn't try to correct her and instead just smoothly reorients the conversation to nagging about if she's done packing.
on the day of, tobari's already out—their plans are more toward late afternoon and he's been out of the house since morning. the most he's told rafayel is to meet him in the city ]
Classy but comfortable?
Dont overthink it
You always look good
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but, he's relieved she seems to be taking it rather well. or rather, she seems delighted? they really grow up so fast... that said, it's been a whirlwind of a few days since the move. which may have worked out for his propensity to overthink when it came to matters of the heart. he was sensitive and delicate, and it likely showed in the days prior, where he seems to toe the line of being incredibly good as appearing aloof, and other days where he completely avoided him.
you know, those awkward anime moments where they reach for the same... idk ketchup.
that said, he does smile a little at the text. ]
wow youre already laying it on thiiick
makes me think you have an ulterior motive tonight
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and you know what he's doing anyway? three guesses and the first two don't count
but he never brought it up or called attention to it for raf's sake... at least the day of the date has arrived and tobari looks down at this text for a second before responding ]
Should I clarify I dont move that fast on the first date?
Even as a joke I feel like I should be sincere
For what matters Id rather take my time
And you do matter to me
[ he's fully aware that raf is probably just messing with him but he takes intimacy seriously......... ]
Anyway did that answer your question about dress code
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is honestly going to make him have a meltdown.
it's strange. he's never considered himself someone afraid of commitment. no, it came easily to him. lemurians lived and breathed for love. once they gave their hearts, they tended to go in blindly, enough where the deep sea felt like a prison for some; where their hearts remained on land, regardless of what all common conventions would say. maybe rafayel isn't the exception. he isn't sure what's worse, though. the fact that he's a little touched tobari is thinking of him this much, or the fact that he feels a little disappointed? stop, he is a lads, he cannot fight his nature. ]
thats not what you said at the hotel lobby that one time
[ forget the fact that he was also cursed... bye ]
anyway yeah you did
i was going to ask what color you were gonna wear but nvm
its not fun unless we coordinate without planning
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so instead he tries to find a different way out of this that is actually just as bad ]
How do I put this delicately
If youre patient I'll make it worth your while
So be good
[ BUT HE'S NOT ENTERTAINING THIS ANYMORE!!!! even as he is making the problem worse.... he always does this ]
I've already left the house so it's up to you
No pressure
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they say the passive fish loses its meal
so too much patience isnt always a good thing
dun forget this a life lesson from rafayel
[ but okay, he's also over it. (he's not)
he wants the last word still, but he will end up leaving the house at the designated hour. enough to make it at the meeting spot with some time to spare. he figures if tobari makes it just on time, he can just have a coffee at a cafe, or something? but he is wearing this i guess... this is like linking an outfit at the purgatory parties all over again. also why was it so hard to find this outfit not unbuttoned... people be wilding. ]
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anyway he's rolling his eyes at this message and not entertaining it further because they aren't banging on the first date, raf. this is the 5% of stuff that tobari manages to firmly say no about
this fit is so cute.... the idea of people just unbuttoning it is so funny to me OH LADS anyway tobari is always black with shades of red so it's not a surprise they match.
rafayel will find himself on a fairly busy street—there's eateries, bars, plenty of places where people are milling about. it's late afternoon, approaching dusk, and tobari is definitely already there because it'd be embarrassing to make his date wait. and yet he strides over as if this is any other time they're meeting up and not a date. despite the fact that he is taking this seriously, there's still this easy confidence to him—something a bit effortless even when in the midst of what can really only be called a housemate situationship ]
Hey. You didn't overthink it, right?
[ and yet he'll reach out to catch rafayel's hand, pulling him closer automatically as tobari tilts his head as if to drink in the sight of him ]
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hinagiku didn't deserve this... but, oh this fit is so cute?? them inadvertently matching. or maybe it isn't accidental at all.
when he sees tobari, he can already feel his tension rise. there's a certain excitement laced behind his voice, even when he seems keen on playing it cool. he also gives a casual sort of wave, though he does end up pointing at his cheek and doing... a cute pose. ] Do you think you achieve this kind of look without a little thinking? [ jk, jk. he brushes it off easily enough, especially as... he's gradually realizing that tobari took his hand so effortlessly?
he blinks a few times, before he looks away. ] Looks like you thought a little, too. [ tobari does look good...
you know, from what he saw before he turned his head away. ]
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the cute pose is endearing though... it makes the corner of tobari's mouth curve up in an almost smile. ]
Couldn't let you show me up too much. [ that'd be too embarrassing. ] But I meant what I said over text.
[ that raf always looks good. well. he meant all of what he said over text but that's the part he's alluding to. ]
Should we get started? There's some time before our reservation, so I figure we might as well get started with part one.
[ multiple parts to a date.... yes. ]
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normally, he'd ask him to clarify and squeeze another compliment out of him, but that feels... dangerous today. ]
Sure. But, you planned a whole course? [ he tilts his head curiously, gradually doing his best to fall back to routine. ] Funny, since in the end you're just coming back home with me.
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Tell me about it. Is it weird if I ask you for a ride back home? Should I just stay with Suzune tonight?
[ he actually hasnβt found a solution for this yet but he canβt deny that the first option sounds kinda lame to himβ¦ who asks their date to drive them backβ¦ is it different when theyβre living together perhapsβ¦
but tobari will gently pull rafayel along down the street—not too far, but theyβre apparently going to a different bar ]
Dinnerβs classic but I figured we should actually do something fun.
[ since they can just⦠eat dinner together⦠anytime⦠]
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